169. alone lonely

Assalamualaikum,

Now I am back... It was hectic due to adjusting and studying at foreign place.

its now early February and it has been 4 months I left Malaysia to study in Ireland. feeling homesick most of the time cannot be denied. a semester has ended and exams were finished around last week. we now have around 2 weeks of holiday as break where everyone is already scattering themselves all over the places in the world.

I hope one day I will be able to go for a holiday but of course with my family. a holiday alone or without family feels so cold. the warmth that family gives can never be replaced and I want that kind of warmness.

usually my day will be accompanied by someone, he is so special to me. unfortunately, I left him in Malaysia cause preparing for our future is our priority. we contact every day and almost all the time. however, starting 2 hours ago until another 4 days, I doubt that we can even get in touch. he has gone to visit his relatives in kampung. I hope internet connection is somewhat available there. its almost impossible but its still possible. so lets put up some faith.

with that, I am officially bored because I am officially alone and I feel so lonely.

I planned on keeping myself busy so that it will buy some time and I will feel that time flies...I do hope Wednesday comes early than usual...haha...

so thats it...I hope I can keep updating my dearest blog continously after this since I assume that I already settled down nicely here...

till then...

148. Strive

suitable for me... 0.o

Assalamualaikum,

Well, today my mind is fully filled with just one thing which is my upcoming result...I am so nervous, anxious and scared...I want to have the confident yet I am just not sure how well will I achieve...I don't know what to react when I got my result...Moreover the result will be updated online so everyone will be busy checking their result and everyone is anxious...I am just not sure whether among all those people that will be checking at that day, will I be one of those who manage to get excellent result...

124. In Love with Engineer

assalamualaikum,

hehe...nothing to say today...

just to say that my boyfriend is taking an engineering course...

hehe, I was actually confused before whether to take medicine or engineering course,

but I ended up choosing Medicine since I think I like it little bit more than engineering...

hehe, fortunately, my unrealized dream finally comes very near to me,

through someone whom I L**E...hehe..

I was glad, but one important think is that,

I did not fall in love with what he studies or who will he become...

but it is HIM, his own self that I l**e...

hehe...okay that is all with this crap...no idea actually...

just feeling excited with the happiness...

114. Please Teach Me

haha...suddenly I start to miss and love my teacher so much...

hoping that they are always beside me and can even be with me in my dreams...

want to know why???

because I need them to teach me everything again...

since I will be having my semester exam this Friday...

huhuhu...

107. Islam itu...

assalamualaikum...

huhu...yes, I admit that i have been neglecting this blog for quite some time now due to the tonnes of work to do in IB...blame IB...haha

well, in thus post I just wanna share something that I planned to publish it at that instant I found it...
At that time, my heart was full with worries and it was so uncomfortable...
I was afraid and thought that the world is collapsing above me...
But Allah led me to something that finally made my heart to live with peace...
At that moments of sorrow and pain, I found a book on my friend's desk...
I tried to take a look and finally fall deeply in it..

here is an excerpt that when I read, I feel like Allah is the best, how He can know my feelings...
How He knows how much I need to read and remind myself about the truth of HIM...

I hope this excerpt can also be the most effective 'pain killer' for anyone that is having problem out there...

O' Allah, possessor of Majesty, Magnificence, and Might, let comfort take the place of sorrow, make happiness comes after sadness, and let safety take the place of fear...
O' Allah : Soothe burning hearts with the coolness of faith 
O' our Lord : Give peaceful slumber to the restless and serenity to disturbed souls
O' our Lord : Guide the confused ones to your light and those that are astray to your guidance
O' Allah : Remove evil whispers from our hearts and replace them with light, destroy falsehood with truth, and crush the evil plots of the Devil with your army of Angels
O' Allah : Remove from us misery, affliction and anxiety 


We seek refuge in You 
from fearing anything except You, 
from depending upon anyone except upon You, 
from putting our full trust in any one except in You...
and from invoking anyone other than You...
O' Allah please hear my wish...
You are the Supreme Patron and an excellent Protector

104. Time Management

hahah...time management for students...

its killing...uwaa!!~~

mood : tension with so many works to be done and so many things to think of..huhu...save me...

102. Mathematics Problems on Trigonometry

haha.. :D

some even says ;

"hey maths, why do you keep asking me to solve your problem? 

I have my own problems too"

and some others say it differently ;

"hey maths, I am tired already of trying to find your 'X'. 

Why don't you move on and forget her already?"

and to me, I would say...

everything is just funny...LOLs

p/s : I have maths portfolio to be done in a week time...should be dead before the deadline.. :)