82. Undefine Thought

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in this unnamed place with the opened flower of impulse

a quiet beginning is told

the goals of your youth seeks after a definite heat

I'll release a signal into this sky

with the repeating days to my back

I'm looking for the moment to spread my wings

even if it is a lonely hope

I want to go to an unknown world

passing all my limits

with this dream pouring out of my entire body

like a brilliant morning sun that lights a new world

carry the feelings born from a brilliant light in your chest

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I found this written on my piece of paper 

which I was about to throw away while tidying up my study table... :)

81. Jiwa yang Tenang

Assalamualaikum...

* siri peringatan buat yang masih hidup *

"Kejayaan yang diraih oleh seseorang tanpa ditunjang oleh ibadah bagaikan bangunan yang didirikan tanpa asas (foundation)"

"Keinginan untuk dilihat sebagai hebat sebenarnya akan mengsengsarakan kita"

"Nikmatilah hidup merdeka, tidak diperhambakan oleh keinginan dipuji, dihormati atau dilayan istimewa, sebab menjadi orang-orang yang biasa itu sebenarnya nikmat! =)"

80. Idle

assalamualaikum,

well, I am very3 tired today...i had an oral this morning and also class decoration at night... I did not go to terawikh because I was actually having an aching leg..so, I thought that I should have a good rest...

however, I ended up going to my classroom and decorating it for the theme of the Rememberance of al-Quds...

and there were only like 2 peoples including me that actually cam to the class to make the decorations...haha

anyway, I don't mind about that...but I really think that the way I am leading my life is so idle...

I am doing something yet I don't what exactly I am doing...

I am so close to someone yet we are actually so far away...

i know someone yet we actually don't know each other...

79. Hidden Card

Assalamualaikum.

We actually just received our placement results last Friday...placement is like putting a boundry of students so that they will have more specific scope of aimed university... and so, the placement decision is made by considering factors 

i. results of semester 1 and semester 2

ii. interview with external interviewer

iii. personal statement (hardest thing to do...)

iv. confidential report (by mentor)

v. recommendation of teachers

I won't forget to be grateful to one and the Only Allah that actually made my hope comes true...

I got the place that I want as my first choice...

as soon as the placement list is out, everyone had their own feelings...

some felt happy, sad, angry, frustrated, annoying and etc...

but however, all of us were bound to say that we got here and we got there...